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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Mindfuck
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It only took me 21 years to figure out life, and the reason
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behind it. It is 'gods' way of fucking with us. Now, I don't
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belive in god, but I am agnostic. Something up there has a
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hell of a lot more power than I do, and possibly controls part
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of my life or whatnot. I don't know, but I am open to ideas.
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Anyway, whether it is god, fate, a set of gods, or whatever
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else you believe in, I have found the answer to it all.
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Tonight I was reading back through old letters and cards from
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friend's and families thinking about the past. I keep all
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incoming letters like that in a file folder, and tonight I
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went back through it. I found that reading them brought up
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good memories as well as bad, but mostly good. It hit me that
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whoever created us humans, was quite clever. I can see
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him/her/it saying 'This will be the ultimate mind fuck...the
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human race'.
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We go through life meeting thousands of people. Out of those
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thousands, you actually know maybe a hundred or so pretty
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well, even less become good friends, and only a select few
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become your best friends. If you are prone to moving, desiring
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change, or whatever, sit back and think back to all your old
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friends, from high school, college, old neighborhoods, or
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wherever else.
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The ultimate mindfuck is this: Of all those people you knew so
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well, you don't really remember them. All of the good times in
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the past are just that...over. Even by reading something that
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reminds you of it, looking at pictures, or talking to the
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person, you can only retrive a fragment of the good time you
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had with them. The human brain can't remember events with
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enough clarity to be a feasible way to escape to the past. All it can
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do is make you feel like total shit for not keeping in touch
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with those people or wishing to be back in that time.
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Think back to past friends you spent a lot of time with. Why
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were they such a good friend? In the first five minutes you
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think about this, you will probably come to the same
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conclusion I did. "They were just cool". Now sit there longer
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and think back to what events led up to meeting the person,
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things you did early on, later on, and so forth. Probably
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twenty minutes later you are thinking "I really miss that
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person being around. Why didn't I stay in touch?"
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So you are doomed to continue through life, making new
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friends, having more good times, only to sit down years from
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now and see that it is all over, and that you remember it to
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be a good time, but still not able to recall exactly what made
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it that way. You can only remember the basic events, some
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minor details etc.
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Conclusion? I have none. Neither you nor I will go through
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life thinking 'I better remember this event more closely so
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that I may enjoy it later down the road'. Keep meeting people,
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and enjoy the time you spend with them. Later down the road,
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don't spend a lot of time thinking about them, and don't
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become depressed about it. That defeats the purpose of those
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'good' memories.
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DisordeR
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... =
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= Internet : disorder@corrupt.sekurity.com -or- jericho@netcom.com =
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= Chemical Persuasion 203.324.0894 Ionic Destruction 215.722.0570 =
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= Wulf's Den 303.699.WULF E.L.F. (NUP) 314.272.3426 =
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= Dungeon Sys. Inc. 410.263.2258 Celestial Woodlands 409.764.2843 =
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= Plan 9 716.881.3663 Logikal Nonsense 717.XXX.XXXX =
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= Purple Hell 806.791.0747 Deadly Intoxication 801.553.8644 =
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= PuRe EViL (NUP) 905.XXX.XXXX The Keg 914.234.9674 =
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= Misery 318.625.4532 =
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= Files through Anonymous FTP: FTP.NETCOM.COM - cd /pub/illusion/fuck =
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= CORRUPT.SEKURITY.COM - cd /pub/zine/fuck =
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= ADS112.RH.PSU.EDU - cd /pub/magazines/fuck =
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