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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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To Kristine with love
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I guess I gotta give some background.
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I met this girl a while ago. I was a really timid guy then -- arguably
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still am -- and rather young. Probably younger than you'd think, because
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this was a fair amount of time ago. I suppose it would do enough justice
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to say that she and I met at a party, even though that's not wholly true.
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"You thought they were all kiddin' you...
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You used to laugh about
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Everybody that was hangin' out."
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She was really attractive. She was from Colorado and she was just rebel
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enough to appeal to me at the time. She was just the same age as me, or
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maybe a little older. The details of the event don't really matter, but
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suffice it to say that the night was important enough for me to remember
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it through the years, and it wasn't because of the sexual act or a shade
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of it.
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"But now you don't talk so loud
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Now you don't seem so proud."
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A chance conversation today revealed something that I can't really get out
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of my head -- it's like nothing I've ever felt before. I'd say I was
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crushed but that wasn't really it. I'm somewhere between shocked, upset,
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angry, mellow, and depressed. Whatever it is I feel, it is genuine.
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This cute girl must have gotten herself into some trouble the last few
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years. She's in rehab and has been for a few months now. I could have
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almost smelled that there was something wrong with her when we were.
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together way-back-when. It wasn't that she seemed like she'd had a
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horrible event in her family, like a molestation, and it certainly wasn't
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the seed of sexual dysfunction that I saw. It was that there was
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something even more shocking in her. A disparity in her psyche and a
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corruption of her family that I wouldn't be able to understand.
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"HOW DOES IT FEEL?
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How does it feel?
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To be without a home?
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Like a complete unknown?
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Like a rollin' stone?"
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Orestes
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... =
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= Internet : jericho@netcom.com (Mail is welcome) =
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= gote land +27.31.441115 =
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= Chemical Persuasion 203.324.0894 Celestial Woodlands 214.252.6455 =
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= that stupid place 215.985.0462 Hacker's Haven 303.343.4053 =
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= E.L.F. (NUP) 314.272.3426 Misery 318.625.4532 =
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= Dungeon Sys. Inc. 410.263.2258 Psykodelik Images 407.834.4576 =
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= Paradise Lost 414.476.3181 Black SunShine 513.891.3465 =
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= underworld_1995.com 514.683.1894 Digital Fallout 516.378.6640 =
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= PSYCHOSiS 613.836.7211 Bad Trip 615.870.8805 =
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= Plan 9 716.881.3663 suicidal chaos 718.592.1083 =
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= Phallic Paradise 801.944.7353 Purple Hell 806.791.0747 =
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= Atrocity Exhibition 905.796.3385 Phoenix Modernz 908.830.8265 =
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= The Keg 914.234.9674 =
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= Files through Anonymous FTP: FTP.NETCOM.COM - /pub/je/jericho/FUCK =
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= FTP.FC.NET - /pub/deadkat/misc/FUCK =
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= FTP.WINTERNET.COM - /users/craigb/fuck =
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= FTP.GIGA.OR.AT - /pub/hackers/zines/FUCK =
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= ETEXT.ARCHIVE.UMICH.EDU - /pub/Zines/FUCK =
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= Files through WWW: ftp://ftp.netcom.com/pub/je/jericho/jericho.html =
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