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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Drugs
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I will admit firstoff, that I am not the first and foremost
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authority on drugs and their usage, but I am writing this as a warning and
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a story for others to read for your enjoyment, fear, laughter, whatever. As
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a small disclaimer for those less intelligent than the others, don't try
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many of these things at home.
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First off, I am 16. I have been 16 for a few months now, and will
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continue for a few more months. So I guess I'm about 16 1/2. I quit doing
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drugs about 2 years ago, and I've been getting better ever since. It was
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a very confusing and difficult time in my life, and it is not something that
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I would hope to repeat. I wouldn't curse it on anyone I know, enemy OR
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friend. It was a dark chapter in my life. A very dark one. I was into
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many many drugs, and combined them in an assortment of ways. Pot, cocaine,
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heroin, alcohol, LSD, shrooms, you name it, I probably tried it once or
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twice. Not only was I high all the time, but I always felt bad after I
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stopped. I always had to have some more as soon as I came off my high. It
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was horrible. But I kept doing it for many reasons. Peer pressure,
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addiction, the effect it had on people when they saw me, etc etc. The list
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can go on and on, but nothing can justify such a violent act such as doing
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drugs. The only problem that I've had with quitting drugs, is the starting
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of cigarettes to give my hands something to do rather than masturbating,
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since that is not really socially acceptable anywhere, which is even less
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than smoking. :) In any case, let me get back to my point. If you've
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already started drugs, quit. Immediatly. If you do not heed my warning,
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perhaps I have to go into a little more detail about a particular incident
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that happened about 2 hours before I quit. Yes, this was the determining
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factor.
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I woke up that morning the same as every morning, with a great
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hangover that was caused by the alchohol I had the night before. I think
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it was vodka... I went to school, same as always, went to pick up a few
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friends while on my bike so that we could go together to school. We all
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got together and rode on to school.
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School was relatively normal, rather boring to say the least. We
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were discussing the upcoming frog disection, I believe, and I was getting
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restless. I stayed there, for some reason, until school was out. I was not
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into ditching, and I have no idea why not. Anyway, I never left school with
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the same people I came to school with. This time I left with my "friend"
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named, we'll say, Sean. Sean and I had known each other only 2 years, but
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we both had a profound interest in drugs. This particular day, he happened
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to have a bit of cocaine laced pot. Quite intriguing, to say the least. I
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really wanted to try it. So I did. A whole lot of it. I was completely
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fucked up. I didn't stop there, however, and this is where I realize what
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drugs had done to me -- I know when to quit. Drugs do not. After 20
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minutes of being bored with the pot, I brought out some more vodka I had
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leftover from the day before. Aaahh, sweet vodka. I took a few swigs of it
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and, after a few minutes, passed out.
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I woke up in a hospital. I had no idea how I got there, but I felt
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like shit. I asked the nurse in the room how I had gotten there, and she
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said that I had been left there by an unidentified person. So that meant I
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had been left at a hospital while I was overdosing by Sean, but he didn't
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have the respect to stay and see how I was. I never spoke to him again.
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My parents were called, and they came immediatly, since they had
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become worried now. Mind you, I left school at about 3:00pm and it was now
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about 8:00. The moment that my mother saw me, she cried and left. My father
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left as well, probably to comfort her. I couldn't move, I was seeing trails
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everywhere, I was in bad shape. I won't go into the rest of the pain I was
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feeling, nor will I go into the rest of the night or even my life. All that
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I will say is that from that instant, when I saw my mother crying, I decided
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to quit drugs immediatly. Since then, I haven't touched any. Since then,
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I have become closer to my parents than any other child I've ever heard of.
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Since then, I've become a better person. Grades have improved. Social
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skills have improved. Attention span has improved. Basically, after almost
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killing myself, I was able to bring myself out and make myself into a person.
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If you do drugs, heed this warning. I wouldn't want to curse that sort of
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action any ANYONE, even my worst enemy.
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-=- Murcurochrome -=-
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... =
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