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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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The Waiting
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I feel very alone. All around me is darkness, but not in
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the heart or the soul, for in those places, she exists. She is
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with me now, maybe not physically, but I can feel her presence.
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Right now, thoughts of her plague my head. I cannot rid myself of
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my visions of her, I fear that I might love her.
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But how can I love someone I've never met face to face?
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How can I love someone who I'm not always there for, who I don't
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have all the answers to give to? I don't know. I just know that
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right now I miss her so bad that my stomach is turned in knots,
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and that I feel that I need to speak with her now. Right now.
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The waiting for the time in which I can speak to her
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again just is not fair. These days I may not be so happy, I
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still feel sad when I'm all alone. I hate her father. That
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asshole forced her off of the phone, for no reason. Oh, he has
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important business. Fuck business.
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I don't know what's wrong with me. I normally don't
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care about people that much. But right in this very instant,
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my mind is so caught up in her that I can't even think straight.
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I really just want to be with her, but I know it is not possible.
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Some say love is expressed in unattachment, I think they are a
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bunch of liars. I'm too attached.
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I wonder what she is doing right now. I can imagine
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that she is sleeping soundly in her room, even as the glow
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of my monitor is cast over my face. My thoughts wander off
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to why I can't be with her, and why the world isn't so small
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when you love someone. Life isn't fair, it never is. Not
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in matters of wanting, of needing someone, who just is so
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far away. Maybe I just have to let go.
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I'm sick of waiting. Very fucking sick. I should've
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told her I love her. Maybe I'll never get the chance to again.
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Who knows, the world is so messed up. Right now, I don't know
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if I can make it through tonight without her. Right now, I
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feel worthless. Right now, I want her by me. Right now, I
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want to tell her I love her. Right now, I'm so gone.
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-DropComm
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: dedicated to Rach in Maine.
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