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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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heat
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summer is brutal. i lie awake every
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night, restless, beads of sweat
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rising on my neck, face, and thighs.
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the heat makes it impossible to
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concentrate, and my thoughts flicker
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like a hummingbird jumping from
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flower to flower. it's the heat that
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keeps me awake, the heat that makes
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me think instensely and unendingly
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about everything that comes to the
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surface from the depths of my brain
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and body. it's the heat that makes
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me want to crawl out of my own
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flesh and become someone else.
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when the air above the pavement
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visibly quivers and i can taste the
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grit of the city within my dry
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mouth, i feel dirty. it's the same
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feeling i have when i see my ex
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in the darkness of the club, or
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i hear a song that reminds me of
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the past. i want to run away,
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escape, cleanse myself in a deep
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clear pool. it's the heat that
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makes me think these things, these
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incoherent ramblings of a woman
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who loathes all that she is and
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all that she ever was.
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the heat feels like a pulse. a
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constant beat that reverberates
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through my brain and rocks my
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soul with it's eternal and
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relentless hum. it never lessens,
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never fades. the heat is like
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the razor that i once used to
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tease my flesh, sharp and bright.
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the heat is even a little like
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a love i once had, an immersion
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so complete and strong that i
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thought it would never end.
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there is something good about the
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heat. it goes away, it fades
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gently into crisp air and cool
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colors, kind of like the soft
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shuddering end of an orgasm,
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when the pulse finally ceases.
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i like the cold. death is cold.
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the heat reminds me too harshly
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that i am alive.
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palpable obscure
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