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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Back to the Basics
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(written for the 5th anniversary)
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First off, fuck you. Since I know I mean that for more people than I
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don't, why not say it. For those who have been reading the 'zine for a
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while and not giving me feedback, fuck you. Gradual changes suck for
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those closely involved because we don't see the end results for what
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they are. Did you know I almost killed the 'zine? Probably not. Instead,
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it will go on with help from one or two editors. For the authors that
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means faster response time probably. It also means more strict guidelines
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for what is accepted. Seems a lot of files recently lack that little fire
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in them. That extra bit of angst to lend to your point.
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What happened to it? Fuck if I care, back to the basics. We aren't
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going to pull a corporate clusterfuck and analyze this to death, nor look
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to change structure, or any of that crap. Old school business: stick to
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what works. So here we are. And just to avoid an argument about who is
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to blame, it's all my fault. No other. I let this degrade into half hearted
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rants with no fire in them. Why? Because life has become quite serene for
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me. The other day some really fucked up shit happened to me. I can't
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begin to explain, but suffice it to say, I'm pissed.
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You hold a concept, idea, philosophy or whatever else close to you.
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You believe in it without hesitation and without question, knowing it is
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the "right thing". One day it all comes crashing down around you though.
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Slaps you once and says "sorry, life isn't that fair." Fucks with you, then
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leaves again, letting you become serene again. Just what people like me
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need. As for what sparked this, don't ask. I will write about it somewhere
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down the road probably.
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Cause and effect can be so silly. How does a single minute possess the
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ability to fuck with 20 years of your life? Incredible that it can. More
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incredible is that there are more than three people still left in this
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world because of it. The one thing that makes that possible is morals and
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ethics, which lead to laws that set up that cause/effect relationship. Worse,
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those laws are not fair by any means. Why does it always happen that if I
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sneeze on the wrong side of the road I will get caught, ticketed, and fined,
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while deranged crackwhores lead 2 year slander campaigns against me, a club
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bouncer puts me in a choke hold for asking him to move his truck, and inept
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hacker wannabes borrow a login from their friend and try to hack my server
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for a week, but go unpunished? Why doesn't the law ever work FOR me since
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I pay for it and the accompanying enforcement?
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I miss the old days of... everything. Sometimes. At one point I thought
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"I need no friends. Solitude is the answer." Then it was "I miss my
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friends." Now, I think it is "I want a new set of 'old' friends." Maybe I
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just need to get laid. Fuck if I know anymore. Days pass where I can't put
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my feelings into words at all. I sit there pondering my mood, not even
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diving into WHY I might be in that mood. My list of projects grows immense
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as I wallow in this slump. No desire or driving force to be creative or
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productive most of the time.
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I ponder occasional trivial points like if I am 'alone' or 'lonely'.
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Does it really matter? There is an obvious gap in my life. Does this qualify
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as overanalyzing the problem? I seek escape in movies, music, and dancing.
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I really do try to be social and talk to people. In the spare time I find
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myself writing or wanting to at least. Like always, I ponder if writing is
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worth it sometimes. It is rare that I go back and read things of my own.
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Feedback (or lack thereof) is rare suggesting my message isn't going
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anywhere.
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Back to the basics. Know one thing, everyone has a fight. A cause. An
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agenda. Some are open about it, others aren't. That said...
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=-=
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One reason the 'zine isn't dying is because Capone is going to take over
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some of the editing duties. Continue to send any submissions to
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jericho@dimensional.com and one of us will get to it. Be warned though,
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we are going back to the basics. Higher quality, more focus.. the rants
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of old. We'll continue to take fiction and other material, just make sure
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the point is there. I will continue doing the Poetry Venture as well. If
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you don't know what that is, it is an all poetry mag' I am editing now.
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mail jericho@dimensional.com
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To subscribe to FUCK: "subscribe fuck"
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To subscribe to FUCK Poetry Venture: "subscribe poetry"
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