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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Lost
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The last sixteen months have been pretty tough for me. I know there
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are many people worse off and hell, who am I to complain considering
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I still have a lot to be thankful for. So, if you don't want to read
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another file on self pity then move on out of here.
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Back in October/November 1996 I was approaching my third year of my
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first real job out of college. A job which took me nine months of
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looking to get-1993 was not a good time to be in the job market
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especially for an engineer in Florida.
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That October I was recently put on a new project after the previous
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ones more or less fizzled out. I enjoyed working but was feeling
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some frustration because promises of a move were being made but
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little was being done. Typical shit at our company. More and more
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people were being crammed into already overcrowded space, it was
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getting too noisy to work productively and hell the new commute would
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shorten my drive by thirty minutes each way. Fuck, I couldn't wait.
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Finally when everything was set (new place was ready to move into)
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the company continued to do their best to stall. Some people started
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to take a "fuck it" attitude and went on their merry way doing what
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they were told even if they felt they should be doing something more
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important. And of course then there were a bunch of other lame fucks
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who just rode the wave hoping it wouldn't break.
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In November of 1996, one of my families cats went blind. Not long
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after we ended up having to put him to sleep. On top of the dying
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pet and deteriorating job situation my parents were in the process of
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getting a divorce. In February 1997 a few of us moved into apartment
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which added an additional 7 miles to my 25 mile commute. March,
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April, and May passed and my hour commute was starting to get on my
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nerves. Especially after the company delayed the move again an extra
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few months. Always promising, never delivering--our new company
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motto. Fuck em all, if we didn't move by June I had made up my mind
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that I was going to start looking for another job. My only happiness
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was my new 2-11pm shift which made the drive a hell of a lot easier
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and the last several hours with no one around more enjoyable.
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We eventually moved in to the new place on June 1, 1997. But what
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once was to be a move for the engineering department turned out to be
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a move for the whole company. Course before the move half of the
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company was laid off--not enough money, not enough room. Some very
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good people were let go but I was "lucky" enough to survive the move.
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My new commute of five miles lasted all of four weeks before I became
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another causality. The rest of the company, except for a skeleton
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crew, was laid off a week later. The company was considerate in
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paying everyone for the time worked but most, if not all, lost their
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vacation pay. So, after three and half years of working it was time
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to begin another job search.
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This time around the job search only took two months. I saw
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opportunity open its door so I took a chance and moved 3600 miles to
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accept a new position in August 1997. Within the next four months my
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family had another two pets die. Both of old age. All told that
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makes three pets, one divorce, two moves and one job change in the
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last year and a half. And with me working a contract job I'll be
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hitting the pavement again in a couple months. The time off between
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my last job was not very enjoyable. People asking me why I want to
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move when good jobs are to be had "here." It was tough as hell
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leaving that place behind me. Cheap rent, free food, no laundry,
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little worries--who would want to move. I put a lot of though behind
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it and it would have been very easy to chicken out or put off moving.
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I almost didn't make it.
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When the job comes to an end this time I'll be taking a lot of time
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off to find my way back on the road of life. Hopefully I'll be able
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to enjoy the time without work.
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It takes strength to go all the way live,
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Pallbearer
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